It feels like Monday....

...Yet it's Thursday!  I guess it's because my week is just starting.  I have a long week ahead of me!

Anyway, I thought I would just stop by and write some stuff down.  Still looking for a conclusion!  :p  Lately I've been not feeling so well.  As mentioned in an earlier post, I don't feel right about writing about veganism and being raw because I'm just not anymore.  So basically...ya, I'm not eating good foods.  I have entered back in a lot of processed foods too.  I sure have been feeling the difference!  I feel bloated, I'm over a week late, I feel heavy a lot, more hungry than usual, so so tired all the time, lots of mucous (yuck!)....Just all around not feeling well.

So I was thinking, I should start out really slow and start taking things out of my current diet.  This morning I had an egg and bagel for breakfast and with how yucky I felt I decided that eggs were the first to go.  I'm not the type of person to eat a bagel on it's own so pretty much along with the eggs that will go too.  Along with the butter that goes on the bagel... I think it's a good plan so far!

I'm just going to stick with that for awhile and see how it goes.  When I'm ready to take more foods out I will.  One thing to remember is not to think about what I can't eat.  It's about what I can eat.  More importantly, though, it's really about what I want to eat so I can be a healthier person and a good example.

Now that I think about it, I'll be adding in more things as well as taking things out.  Like exercise.  I'm really looking forward to this.  In a way I'm not feeling so excited about it, but I remember how good I felt as a vegan for so many different reasons.  I know that once I start getting healthier I'll start feeling better all around more excited about my choices.

Note: I started this post on Thursday and wasn't able to finish.  It's finished on Friday morning. :)

Ahh, Summer is here again!

I'm not sure about everyone else, but for me, here in California, the weather has been very much up and down lately.  I think our plants in the garden are really liking it!  So far we have growing tomatoes, a variety of peppers, purple cabbage, corn, sunflowers, beans, potatoes, eggplant...!  There's a lot going on!  This year my husband has been working on a rotation of plants.  So our first set of tomatoes are growing with tons of green tomatoes on them.  And just the other day he planted another set.  So basically by the time we're picking the big set of plants the other plants will be producing more tomatoes.  We're really excited to see how it all turns out!

A lot has been going on around here, but at the same time, not so much.  I've been working like crazy at my job and trying to get in more hours.  Nerium didn't work out so well for me so that's been pushed to the side.  I'm trying to find something to focus on.  Like I did with Nerium.  That didn't work out so well though.  So I've been racking my brain at what I should do.  I had so much fun with my blog and making videos.  But I feel like I shouldn't be focusing on veganism and being raw.  So the focus of this blog will be changing.  I'm not exactly sure how it's going to go, but it's really been changing since the beginning of the year.

I guess I'm just tired of feeling like I can't succeed at anything.  Sure I learn a lot and that is always a bonus.  But why do I feel like I can't move forward with anything?  I guess it's partly trying to find my balance of all things that I enjoy.  I know I can't put my focus on everything I enjoy.  So I need to figure out what is most important, what I love the most, and how to incorporate it all.  I have found that I'm starting to rediscover things.  This blog is a good example of that along with herbs, natural healing type of stuff, going green...

I don't know, I'm just at a loss.  I was really hoping that if I just start writing I'll be able to figure something out.  The whole, letting it flow and coming up with an answer kinda thing.  Know what I mean?  At this rate, nothing new has changed so far.  Maybe it's just going to take some time to figure out.

Hopefully everyone else is doing well :)  I'll write soon ;)