Challenges

Lately I've been thinking about goals, challenges, and things like that.  What do I want to achieve?  I've been through a lot with all the ups and downs/roller coaster of how to eat over the years.  With as hard as it has been with that roller coaster, I have learned so much and actually made a lot of progress.

I try my best to be optimistic :)

So, I've been thinking... I want to do my first realistic, weight loss/diet goal that will last a month.  My first real 30 day challenge.

Rules:

Follow the 80/10/10 rules.
Smoothies for breakfast, lunch, dinner.
Salad for dessert.
Exercise at least 30 minutes per day.  No excuses
No beer
No booze
No preservatives
Drink at least 3L of water per day
Consume at least 3000 calories per day

I feel like I should write more down, but when you really look at it... It can look kind of scary.  But like I mentioned before, I've been through this so many times.  I know everything about it, just haven't put my knowledge to the test.  So I guess this is what it's really about.  Testing myself.  I've done it all, but never together at one time.

I have a feeling I'm going to feel beyond amazing.  And I don't just mean nutritionally feeling good.  I'm thinking spiritually, emotionally, personally....So many different ways.

I'm really scared about doing it though.  That's the hard part.  Why am I so scared?  I have done it so many times before.  They never really felt like I would actually achieve though.  Basically, I guess I felt like a failure, even though I didn't want to fail.  And I ended up failing.  I have failed a lot.  And every time, it feels worse and worse.  It's like a vicious cycle.  Just lots of negatives leading into more negatives.

I've been reading a lot of books on personal development.  I think this is what has been motivating me to write all of this down.  I've been wanting to do the things that make me feel good and happy.  Following these guidelines should put me in this place of where I want to be physically and emotionally.  I'm gonna look so good and feel so good.

Those are long term dreams though.  So, to try to get more serious, I want to just try it for 30 days.  It's a challenge.  Just to see what it's like.  I have a feeling I'm going to feel so much better about it than I ever really have.  I think I will have a much better effect than I ever have dreamed of.

I want to do this starting February 1st.  I know the month is short, and I didn't plan it that way, I promise.  I think I am scared because I have failed so many times in the past.  But at the same time I feel like I will achieve more because I'm starting to put what I've learned into motion.

It's late and this popped into my mind and I felt like writing it down.  So I'm sure I just rambled on for a long time, but oh well.  I'm working more on being more "me" and that's ok.  In fact, I'm really looking forward to more of these types of post.